Paramour
Lexie. 17. Buddhist. Capricorn. John Green. TeaLover. OUATfreak. Jalex exists.
Today has undoubtedly been the longest day of my life.
I knew it wasn’t going to be good when I woke up this morning. I could feel the tension in my joints. I don’t know what triggered it or when, which really is beginning to scare me. I can accept anxiety attacks when triggered, but if they keep just popping up, this could be serious. I’m going to see Dr.Gates on Saturday morning. I just need to hang on two more days. How can I last that long? Two more days. What am I supposed to tell everyone tomorrow? “Sorry I had to leave early because I wasn’t feeling well.” ?
The best and worst thing about anxiety is how much energy it takes out of you. No energy to eat, and I caught up on my sleep (I think). I feel like I have been watching myself from outside of my body for the last few days. I hope tomorrow is better. I need tomorrow to be better. Two more days.
